Have you ever been ashamed of something?
Yes, if I ever hurt a person I feel shame. I felt pretty scummy after I cheated on my boyfriend —--. He had been so kind to me, waiting six hours in the hospital and that’s how I betrayed him. Later I realized it was a bipolar episode but at the time we didn’t know. I wish I could write letters to all the people (----, —. —-) I hurt, explaining my disorder, how I didn’t mean to hurt them but it’s too late now. They’ll just think of me as a bad person.
Have you ever been depressed?
Yes, I’m bipolar 1 so I got depressed episodes. The first time I slipped into a depressive episode I was in eighth grade and I think that was the first time I was suicidal. My last big depressive episode was as a sophomore in college. I was drafting suicide letters in class, wouldn’t shower, would cry in bed. I was committed to a mental institution and diagnosed with major depressive disorder which later switched to bipolar disorder.
What’s the nicest thing anyone has ever done for you?
Omg, people have been so kind to me. Alice and Jake were my best friends in college. They walked me to Rite Aid with me to get Plan B which Brandon paid for. Skyler made me a Winnie the Pooh poster. Emily made me a comic. But mostly its just small everyday gestures like the one Justin does. Justin does a million and one things for me like taking me to the Melting Pot or slowdancing in the kitchen or teaching me how to cook.
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